Sunday, October 20, 2019

Just a little update

I'm still doing the weight watchers program, and am down a total of 6 lbs, 4 of which of course were the first week.   I am fitting into pants that I thought were too tight again!  This is exciting.  I know the weight loss isn't as fast as with the Atkins diet, but hopefully will be more healthy for the long term.

I was gone last weekend for a trial and visiting my parents.  That was fun, and gave me a bit of break from the routine and stresses of home.

Now I'm back and Master has been at work all week so I've barely seen him.  There is little or no kink to speak of.  I feel very blah about that. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2019

Choices, Or Not

Master didn't give me any choice this morning.  He let me take the kid to school, and go to my weight watchers meeting (I lost 4 lbs).

Then we went on a long bike ride and then he said it was definitely time to use the slave this morning.   

Well, he did give me a choice then- between meeting him downstairs wearing something sexy, with something slightly erotic on the TV and some paddles with which he could beat me. 

 Or I could meet him upstairs, wearing my butt plug and collar, and get fucked right away.

Want to guess which one I picked?

 I picked the butt plug and getting fucked right away. 
Well, there was still some cock sucking and flogging with the tiny flogger, but mostly it was fucking and orgasms.  

Wednesday, September 18, 2019


Yesterday was the first time I felt happy in a week.  I felt like I was finally able to let myself relax and enjoy sex fully, instead of just being there for my Master.   And then last night I actually slept all night instead of waking up at 2 or 3 or 4 am. 

I hope this is a trend that continues.

Wednesday, September 11, 2019

TMI Tuesday

1. Which of these do you do the most with your significant other? List in order of frequency from done the most to performed less frequently. If you don’t engage in any of this with your significant other write N/A (not applicable)
  a. Eat meals with your significant other without smartphones, tablets, TV or any device. b. Exercise together c. Share a morning kiss that lasts longer than six seconds.

b. almost every day that he doesn't work. 
Then a. but hardly ever.  We almost always have devices on.
And lastly c. I don't know when that would ever happen- practically never.  We hug a lot in the morning though.

2. Briefly tell us about a time when things felt helpless but you knew you would pull through.

Ah, shit.  Just about every day for the last few weeks.  My life sucks right now.  I'm just hanging on by alternating fatalism and hope in equal parts.

3. Would you rather have sex in a posh romantic hotel suite, on a secluded tropical beach or in your own bedroom? Why?

Ooo, I'm going to pick the posh romantic hotel with someone else washing the sheets.  And it is sound proof too so we can be loud.

4. Have you practiced orgasm denial? Did you like it? Would you do it again?

Only for short periods of time.  Nope, I do not like it at all, not one bit.  It makes my sex drive drop completely instead of perking it up.

5. Finish this line: I doubt I will ever tell you _____ .

My real name.  It doesn't seem to be a good thing to put on a kinky sex blog.

Bonus: Would you pay good money to have the kind of sex you want, when you want?

No, I'm not interested in that.  That would mean I'd have to be the one in charge.

Wednesday, September 4, 2019


Well, we survived the first day of school/college drop off.   It was a long and slightly harrowing week.  First our septic system had a disaster on Monday, the holiday.   Which meant sewage pouring into our basement.  The younger kid was just getting over some illness where he'd been barfing a lot.  We couldn't put any water down the drain.  And I hadn't done the laundry yet so there were two piles of clothes that needed to be washed before taking the kid to school (on Tuesday!) and not to mention showers for everyone.

So, with no choice, Master called around and found someone who would empty the septic tank on a holiday (for extra big bucks of course). But it's still plugged so we have to get someone to fix it, it is only usable now for a week or so.   That will also be even bigger bucks.

Anyway, we got the laundry and the showers and packed the car.  But SOMEONE (kid) left my car door open all night and we had a huge thunderstorm.  One side of my car was soaked, but at least it started up. 

The college is almost 3 hours away, which isn't bad compared to some of the schools we looked at.   It was a long day, but we made it through.  I haven't started crying yet, but I did get misty eyed a few times.  I just think about all the worse things I've been through, going to college is a GOOD thing. 

Thursday, August 29, 2019

Catch up

I'm not sure how nearly the whole month of August got away from me without any blogging!

It seems like I'm busy doing a million things every day, trying to get ready for school starting, going to appointments, buying hay, unloading hay bales, trying to keep up with the Pokemon Go...

But we do find some time for kink and enjoying each other regularly anyway.   Friday night there was some exciting times in the woods I can't really talk about...

And last night Master was teasing me all evening.  He made me a bet about the Pokemon game- I thought he should have 2 raid passes and he thought he'd only get one.  He bet me ass sex vs. whatever reward I wanted to choose that he was right.  This is funny to me, because as my Master he could fuck my ass any time he wanted, but he still wanted to bet to win.  I don't know why.  I lost the bet, but then he decided it was too late and he was too tired to fuck.  

I had gotten myself all worked up, even watching some porn before bedtime, which I almost never do, so I was kinda disappointed. 

When I told him I'd been watching porn and was all heated up, he got a second wind and began playing with me.  I'm sure I slept a lot better after those orgasms.  Thank you, Master.   

Saturday, August 10, 2019

Wind Chimes

Being the Master is hard, what with all the decisions he has to make.   This hard decision of this morning was between sticking a penis in or adding more clothes pins.  The answer?  

MORE CLOTHESPINS (is this kind of like more cowbell?)

When he hit them with a flogger or tapped them they all clinked together like a wooden wind chime.


Here's the wind chime formation:  


 Eventually all the clothespins had to come off so he could fuck me, but not before I'd been flogged.  There was also quite a bit of caning, before, after, and during the clothespins.  He wanted me to say the pictures are all for Tara.  

Just a little update

I'm still doing the weight watchers program, and am down a total of 6 lbs, 4 of which of course were the first week.   I am fitting into...