Webinars

Something that really helped me chill out is getting in on some BDSM discussion groups with people I kinda, sorta know.  All these clubs and events are shut down, so people are figuring out how to put their educational resources on line in the form of webinars.  It's almost like talking to other people, but not exactly.  At least I can listen and be inspired. 

If you are on Fetlife, you can find some of the events here:  https://fetlife.com/groups/613.  You don't have to be a member of GD2 to attend the webinars. 

Mood

My moods this week have ranged from grumpy to crabby to angry to resentful.  I want to do better.

Theme for the week

My Master gives the best commands sometimes.  Lately he's been bringing home cake mix and commanding me to bake.  Yes Sir Master!  

Graphic by Hyperbole and a Half. 

 

Ow

My inner innards hurt.  I think they have gotten pounded pretty well the past few days.  Takes a licking and keeps on ticking, though, like a certain watch used to say.

Playful Lockup

Having a little fun

https://www.scummybears.com/collections/masks-1/products/scummy-cares-bratty-bear-face-mask

I just saw this.  It's a medical face mask. 

Tuesday TMI

1. As the world deals with covid-19, are you masturbating more?


No, I have lost all my desire to masturbate.  Unless my Master starts things up with me, I don't feel like sex at all most of the time. I guess it's the anxiety? 

2. With stay-at-home orders and lock-downs, are you able to have more kinky fun at home?

Kinky fun at home is about the same amount as it was before. My Master is still working the same hours.

3. Do you think you are watching more porn since you are home more?


I haven't watched any porn at all.

4. Fill in the blank. “I am so sick of _____ .”

Being scared.

5. If this is your first time having an outside job with which you are now working from home, do you think you are more productive now versus when you were at the office?


My "job" is in the home and also taking care of my sheep, so that is the same as ever.  With lambing and spring, the farm takes up a lot of my time, so I'm super productive that way. Not making money, but keeping busy.  Some dog trial people have invented a way to do virtual trials where we set up courses at home and then video tape ourselves and post them. That has been entertaining and fun and keeps my mind actively trying to work out (non-critical) problems.

Easter

Happy Easter on lockdown!

 

Mean Mean Master

My Master was mean, mean, mean today.  He told me I needed to serve him, until he was satisfied, but I wasn't supposed to like it or get any enjoyment at all.  I wasn't in the sexy mood at all, but I did my utmost to serve him and make him happy anyway.  Until he started fucking me, then there may have been a teeny bit of enjoyment.  But not much, just the sheer joy of being of use to him.  There may or may not have been a puddle (of tears) under where he let me sit on the vibrator as I knelt on the floor and sucked his cock.

Chainsaw Noises

Yesterday my Master knew I really needed some butt whackins.  I kept thinking it hurts too much, but it really wasn't that bad, I've just gone soft.   Also, he thought I should wear my butt plug while he fucked me.  That was amazing and delicious and I had some excellent orgasms.  However, when we were all done he said I had to roll over and make chainsaw noises as he tugged on the butt plug, then start up as he gave it a good yank free.  

What else could I do?  I rolled over. 

"Rmm, rmm," I said softly. 

Then "RMM RMM," as he tugged a little more firmly. 

By the time he pulled it out I was rmmm'ing and laughing so much I barely noticed the plug coming free.  


He told me my chainsaw noises need work.