Saturday, September 25, 2021

My Master

 My Master was released from suffering yesterday, September 24, 2021. Cancer is a cruel disease that no one should experience. He died at home surrounded by his family. He was my world, my everything, my true love, my heart, my Master.


Sunset and evening star,

And one clear call for me!

And may there be no moaning of the bar,

When I put out to sea,


But such a tide as moving seems asleep,

Too full for sound and foam,

When that which drew from out the boundless deep

Turns again home.


Twilight and evening bell,

And after that the dark!

And may there be no sadness of farewell,

When I embark;


For tho' from out our bourne of Time and Place

The flood may bear me far,

I hope to see my Pilot face to face

When I have crost the bar.


--Tennyson


If you believe in a higher power, your prayers are welcome. If not, then think good thoughts for us and hug your loved ones. Do a kindness for someone for no reason.


If you believe dogs go to heaven, then believe that my Master has had a mighty joyful welcoming committee right now, headed up by Puppy Jack, announced by Gwen, and all tears licked away by Sprite and Hank and the other dogs we have loved through many years.


My Master lives forever in my heart and memories. My heart is breaking right now for myself and for our kids who have to go on without him. This was not in our plans, there's not going to be a tragic blimp accident that would allow us to die together. I untied my leash from the bed post last night and held the handle in my own hand.


"Run and Find out!"


-- Rikki Tikki Tavi


The mongoose motto was also my Master's motto when he was young, and he has run ahead to find out.

4 comments:

  1. Oh gosh Ancilla, I am so, so sorry to read this. I just can't imagine what you are going through right now and my heart aches for you. Words just don't seem enough and I wish I could hug you.

    Sending prayers and lots of love to you, the kids and family. You are in our thoughts.

    Sending huge vertial (((Hugs)))
    Roz

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  2. Oh, I'm so sorry, Ancilla, I know this is incredibly hard for you and your family. Heartbreaking.

    Sending you so much love. And strength and courage... although I know you have those in abundance.

    💜 💜

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  3. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way. I pray God will give you peace and know that he is near.

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  4. Oh, I'm so sorry to read this. I've followed this blog for many years, and though I don't "know" you, I do know the pain cancer causes. Much light to you.

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