Tuesday

Tuesday morning Master came home and slept while I dealt with my angst.  He'd asked me to wake him up at 11:00, so when the time came I went up and crawled into bed next to him.   Angst or no angst, a naked cuddle is good.  Or more than a cuddle.  Very soon he was banging me with his fingers, then he got up and told me to get my butt plug in.   I did this (it is going in much easier now that I've been practicing regularly) and then played with myself a little so I'd be still ready when he got back.

He took the leather strap out of the drawer and beat me all over, front and back, with it. When he did my tits with it I had to use all my willpower to keep my hands out of the way and not block the strap.  He tied my wrists and had me suck him while he continued to work on my ass with his hand.   He fucked me and it was amazing and tight and almost but not quite painful with the plug in my ass.  When he took me from behind that did hurt as he slammed in hard, and then he had me be on top, and he gave me many orgasms and slaps to my chest.  

We just had a few minutes to cuddle before we had to get going.

After we had showered up we went to his hair cut appointment, then out for a late lunch at a Thai Noodle shop, then we walked around downtown catching Pokemon and looking at antique shops. He bought a knife there with an interesting design. It was really nice and relaxing.    

The Whole Friends Spat

This thing is going worse than I expected and am afraid it is unfix-able now.   I lost at least a quarter of my friends without my saying a word, and then another quarter, most likely, after I did say something.  So, counting my blessings as always, at least I have my Master who still loves me, and of course the dogs who don't care about all that human stuff and think I am great no matter what.  

TMI Tuesday: Dates, Mates and Relationships

1. Which of these are you most often guilty of in a relationship:
a. jealousy
b. not apologizing
c. not keeping your word
d. guilt trips

I don't know, perhaps none of the above.  My worst problem is more about hamster wheeling and getting too worked up over little stuff. I do wonder what my Master would say about me.

2. Which of the following behaviors would annoy you most in a partner.
a. fishing for compliments by verbalizing self-doubt
b. passive-aggressive behavior
c. usually forgets important dates i.e., birthday, anniversary
d. making you feel guilty when spending time with friends

All of the above are annoying.  Probably the last one is the one I would not have ever put up with in the first place.

3. Consider you are looking for a mate, rank these traits in order of importance, with 1 being most important, and 7 being least important.

__1. Kindness
__2._ Sense of Humor
__3._ Honesty 
__4.__ Reliability
__ 5._ Confidence 
__6_ Assertiveness
  _7._ Ambition


4. Score! You exchanged numbers with a hottie. Now you: (pick one)
a. Wait for a week, see if that person calls you first.
b. Call the next day if not sooner.
c. Call and text incessantly. Let them know they’ve made an impression.
d. You’d never call. What if you get rejected?

This never happens to me. I have no idea. Maybe d? 

5. How did you handle your last relationship break up?
a. You’ve never been in a relationship before. The timing’s never been right.
b. You went out and got drunk every night, until you forgot everything.
c. You went out on a massive amount of date, even with people you knew you had no interest, making sure to date a new face every night.
d. You felt bad and cried, but bounced back in a couple of days.

None of the above.  I never had a bad break up.  Some relationships we simply went on our separate ways.


Bonus: Would you take a holiday all by yourself, at the ‘spur of the moment’? Why or Why not? Where would you go?

No. I don't think my Master would let me, plus I don't want to.


How to play TMI Tuesday:   See this page:   https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/

How I feel when my friends are all fighting

Bad, just very bad.  

Sorry for the vague-blogging, 
but if everyone else can do it
so can I.

The Best Part

I left out the best part of our night, according to Master.  He had taken me roughly on the floor after having me suck his cock while kneeling in front of him.  He fucked me deep and painfully until my body adjusted and accommodated him.  I love that.  He flipped me over then and had me lying on my back on the floor.  He bit me on the chest and I came without being commanded.   

I just asked him now to help me remember more details from Friday night, since he was sitting here at the table with me.  Instead he shoved his hand into the front of my jeans.   I was wiggling and making sounds, and he asked if his roughness hurt.  I said that it did, and he just said "Good", then he made me come.  Helpful! Inspiration, anyway.   But then he had to go to work, after having me suck him quickly. 

Bloody Ass

So, that happened.

Last night Master spanked my ass until it was bleeding.  The paddle actually cracked and pinched me.  I didn't even feel a difference before and after the bleeding started.  He kept going after that, and showed me the paddle all speckled with my blood. I grinned up at it with a face full of tangled hair and endorphin hazed eyes. 

 It has earned a new name, from holey paddle to "Lucille" (The Walking Dead fans get it).  But Lucille will have to be retired now.  I'm not sure how I feel about that. Decidedly mixed.

Lucille, retired holey paddle

I sure did enjoy getting fucked and beaten last night, though.

For my newest task/challenge, I am translating a dirty French book into English for my Master.  It's been entertaining, especially when Google Translate objects to naughty words and refuses to translate them.  Luckily, I also have a book of naughty French phrases.

Nothing

This morning I was sitting here in the kitchen feeling "off", just kind of bleah.   My Master was getting ready for work and he noticed my tone when he asked me questions and told me jokes. 

 He said "What's wrong?"  I said "I don't know, nothing," both of which are on the list of banned phrases.   In an instant he was standing beside me. 
He nudged me in the side with his shoe. "You know you are not allowed to say that to me."   So I said I just feel dreary.  I don't know if it is the weather or I'm getting sick, but that was an acceptable answer. Yesterday we had more snow and today it is sunny and cold.  I'm horny and dreary and wish it was spring.  I'm kind of depressed that last time I expressed interest in sex Master said "Again, already?"  It makes me not want to have interest.  Bleah.