1. _____ call.
Safe call. This is the first word I thought of. Someone should know where you are if you go on a blind date with an unknown person. Even better, do it in public.
2. _____ to me baby.
Talk to me, baby. It's pretty sexy, except for the baby part. No one calls me that, nor do I say it. Except to my dog who is a "baby cookie face".
3. _____ and _____.
Syrup and butter are so good on pancakes. And I can't eat them. I miss pancakes.
4. Sex bloggers are _____.
Sex bloggers are hot stuff!
5. _____ really need to _____.
I really need to walk outside today. It's beautiful!
6. You should be _____.
You should be eating your vegetables! Do as I say, not as I do.
7. I have never been able to ____ long enough.
I have never been able to remember stuff long enough. Except for some stuff. But not what my appointments are. Or poems or phone numbers.
8. Do you wanna _____?
Do you wanna _____? Uh huh, uh huh, do you wanna, uh huh, uh huh. Isn't this a song?
9. My _____ get mad at me for _____.
My kids get mad at me for forgetting what they like to eat. Mainly the younger one because he keeps changing it.
10. When my alarm clock goes off, I _____.
When my alarm clock goes off, I snuggle up to my Master for the second snooze time. This morning snuggles turned into sex, yay!
11. I look forward to _____ this year.
I look forward to kinky camping this year. Tryst doesn't work in our schedule again, but we are going to try a small, cheaper one instead. I hope it will be fun! And not rain!
12. _____ is one of my favorite toys.
Lego is one of my favorite toys. I bet you weren't expecting that answer. I still play with them.
Link to TMI Tuesday blog: https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/26/tmi-tuesday-february-27-2018/
Monday, February 26, 2018
Saturday Night Adventure
Saturday night we went with Mystique and hasufel (her sub of 4 or 5 years now) to a play party down south. First we had dinner at a place I picked (Dr. Peter suggested it to me) which served Peruvian food. I hadn't ever eaten Peruvian food so I was intrigued. It was good, but maybe not spiced enough for some of us. I had a pork sandwich with sweet potato fries IN the sandwich, which was unexpected but delicious. Mystique and hasufel don't like spicy so it was good for them.
Before that we had gone to our local Pokemon Go community day, just Master and me for that one. Just imagine a bunch of crazed Pokemon-ers running around on the university campus in 25-30F degree weather with a stiff breeze blowing, capturing all the Dratinis (normally a very rare crittter). It was cold but we were warmed by fun somewhat. After almost 3 hours I was quite stiff and sore anyway, even with all the fun-warmth. Then we had to run home, change clothes, let dogs out, and head out to dinner and the party.
Once we had settled in and finished socializing, Master took me to a cross in the corner of the dungeon. I stripped off all my clothes and he got the ropes ready to tie a harness on me. I was already getting excited as he had me raise my arms and turn this way and that until he was finished tying. He directed me to step up to face the cross and the first thing I felt was his belt snapping me. He used the new leather straps as well, and then gave me a nice long flogging. There was a pause when he had me step away and he put the hood on me. As I felt my way back to the cross blind I could feel myself slipping away partially into space. The music was muted and I was more alone, except for the physical connection to my Master as the floggers continued to fall on me.
He hit me with several canes, and other implements that I'm not even sure about, and right about the point when I was ready to stop, it was really hurting, he asked if I was ready for the grand finale.
I said yes.
He told me it was going to be ten hard ones with the tire tread paddle, an extremely severe implement.
Tire tread paddle:
Wicked, huh?
One. Two. Three. All hard ones on my ass. Four and five were on each of my shoulders. Six and seven were even more painful. At eight I began to cry quietly. Nine and ten finished me off.
Relief.
And then: Eleven. Hey! That was an extra for good luck, I guess.
But now he really was done and he turned me around and held me tight. It felt amazing to be his and wrapped his arms. As soon as he had unhooded me and I'd cleaned up our station he led me into a quieter back room where he pushed me to me knees and had me suck him. Then I laid down our towel and blanket on the floor and he fucked me. We could here people talking just around the corner but I couldn't tell if they peeked in or not. There was no door or anything so I didn't really expect privacy. He slapped my face a bunch, which made me come hard. He finished inside me while in doggy style position on my hands and knees. As below.
Here's the effects on my butt, picture taken Sunday night:
A close up:
Master was funny Sunday morning. He commented after looking at me naked, "Have you seen your butt today? I must have been pretty hard on it last night!"
I noticed!
Before that we had gone to our local Pokemon Go community day, just Master and me for that one. Just imagine a bunch of crazed Pokemon-ers running around on the university campus in 25-30F degree weather with a stiff breeze blowing, capturing all the Dratinis (normally a very rare crittter). It was cold but we were warmed by fun somewhat. After almost 3 hours I was quite stiff and sore anyway, even with all the fun-warmth. Then we had to run home, change clothes, let dogs out, and head out to dinner and the party.
Once we had settled in and finished socializing, Master took me to a cross in the corner of the dungeon. I stripped off all my clothes and he got the ropes ready to tie a harness on me. I was already getting excited as he had me raise my arms and turn this way and that until he was finished tying. He directed me to step up to face the cross and the first thing I felt was his belt snapping me. He used the new leather straps as well, and then gave me a nice long flogging. There was a pause when he had me step away and he put the hood on me. As I felt my way back to the cross blind I could feel myself slipping away partially into space. The music was muted and I was more alone, except for the physical connection to my Master as the floggers continued to fall on me.
He hit me with several canes, and other implements that I'm not even sure about, and right about the point when I was ready to stop, it was really hurting, he asked if I was ready for the grand finale.
I said yes.
He told me it was going to be ten hard ones with the tire tread paddle, an extremely severe implement.
Tire tread paddle:
Wicked, huh?
One. Two. Three. All hard ones on my ass. Four and five were on each of my shoulders. Six and seven were even more painful. At eight I began to cry quietly. Nine and ten finished me off.
Relief.
And then: Eleven. Hey! That was an extra for good luck, I guess.
But now he really was done and he turned me around and held me tight. It felt amazing to be his and wrapped his arms. As soon as he had unhooded me and I'd cleaned up our station he led me into a quieter back room where he pushed me to me knees and had me suck him. Then I laid down our towel and blanket on the floor and he fucked me. We could here people talking just around the corner but I couldn't tell if they peeked in or not. There was no door or anything so I didn't really expect privacy. He slapped my face a bunch, which made me come hard. He finished inside me while in doggy style position on my hands and knees. As below.
Here's the effects on my butt, picture taken Sunday night:
A close up:
Master was funny Sunday morning. He commented after looking at me naked, "Have you seen your butt today? I must have been pretty hard on it last night!"
I noticed!
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Happiness is...
My mouth and nose taste like piss and the scars and scabs from Tuesday's
whipping are starting to itch. I could not be any happier about this.💗💖
Friday, February 23, 2018
Ask Nicely
Last night Master was using me quickly before bed and he told me if I asked nicely he would put the nipple clamps on me.
Well, I just lay there and didn't say anything. I was hoping my face was saying "no clamps is just fine for me". But he looked at me for a minute and then said, "Eh, close enough" and reached for the bed side drawer and the clamps.
Well, I just lay there and didn't say anything. I was hoping my face was saying "no clamps is just fine for me". But he looked at me for a minute and then said, "Eh, close enough" and reached for the bed side drawer and the clamps.
Fit for Friday # Four
Hello all! Here is my week's wrap up.
2/16 9.5 carbs. 20 minutes of walking indoors and 20 minutes of zumba.
2/17 11 carbs. 20 minute walk indoors and 30 minute walk outdoors.
2/18 8 carbs. 45 minute walk outdoors, up and down hills and through the snow with Master. Whew, I had some tired legs after that!
2/19 12 carbs. 30 minute walk outside.
2/20 19 carbs. 25 minutes walk outside with Master.
2/21 8 carbs. 25 minute walk, 30 minute walk and one hour of yoga.
2/22 11 carbs. 20 minutes of Zumba, 20 minute walk outside.
This is the most fun Zumba workout I've found: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm4WZyH5p2I
Twenty minutes is plenty for me, I like the instructor on this video and most of the time I'm doing the "modified" low impact version because of old knees and not being in great shape.
It's hard to tell with my inaccurate scale, but it looks like I have lost another pound, which makes 8 total lbs gone since I started my dieting and exercising a month ago. Very happy!
Link to Fit for Friday with Fondles: http://fondles.blogspot.com/2018/02/fff-4.html
2/16 9.5 carbs. 20 minutes of walking indoors and 20 minutes of zumba.
2/17 11 carbs. 20 minute walk indoors and 30 minute walk outdoors.
2/18 8 carbs. 45 minute walk outdoors, up and down hills and through the snow with Master. Whew, I had some tired legs after that!
2/19 12 carbs. 30 minute walk outside.
2/20 19 carbs. 25 minutes walk outside with Master.
2/21 8 carbs. 25 minute walk, 30 minute walk and one hour of yoga.
2/22 11 carbs. 20 minutes of Zumba, 20 minute walk outside.
This is the most fun Zumba workout I've found: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bm4WZyH5p2I
Twenty minutes is plenty for me, I like the instructor on this video and most of the time I'm doing the "modified" low impact version because of old knees and not being in great shape.
It's hard to tell with my inaccurate scale, but it looks like I have lost another pound, which makes 8 total lbs gone since I started my dieting and exercising a month ago. Very happy!
Link to Fit for Friday with Fondles: http://fondles.blogspot.com/2018/02/fff-4.html
Thursday, February 22, 2018
KOTW: Scratching and Mindfucks
My ass was already warm and red from the canes, straps and single tails they had been using on me. I heard some different sounds, the rustling of clothes. Digging in pockets, perhaps. My ears strained. I shouldn't look, I knew. There was a light scratching sensation on my tender behind. I have experienced the sensation often enough to recognize the flexibility of a plastic card of some sort pretending to be a knife.
The mindfuck jig was already up when Dr.Peter commented,
"What is that, a credit card?"
"Shhhh, shhhhh" said my Master, and I giggled.
"I can tell a card from a knife".
Dr. Peter left the room and returned.
Now there was a sensation on my raw ass that was distinctly sharp and pointy. I couldn't see it, but it was definitely NOT a library card.
He poked it straight down in my ass, pricking me. He scratched across me and told me to orgasm. I was afraid to move too much.
I didn't know if there was going to be blood. Master made me spread my legs apart as I lay face down on Dr.Peter's bed. He grabbed and tugged at my labia. The sharp thing pricked against me there and I whimpered. It did hurt. He poked around a bit more and then showed me the knife Dr. Peter had given him.
Click here to see more of Kink of the Week:
The mindfuck jig was already up when Dr.Peter commented,
"What is that, a credit card?"
"Shhhh, shhhhh" said my Master, and I giggled.
"I can tell a card from a knife".
Dr. Peter left the room and returned.
Now there was a sensation on my raw ass that was distinctly sharp and pointy. I couldn't see it, but it was definitely NOT a library card.
He poked it straight down in my ass, pricking me. He scratched across me and told me to orgasm. I was afraid to move too much.
I didn't know if there was going to be blood. Master made me spread my legs apart as I lay face down on Dr.Peter's bed. He grabbed and tugged at my labia. The sharp thing pricked against me there and I whimpered. It did hurt. He poked around a bit more and then showed me the knife Dr. Peter had given him.
Click here to see more of Kink of the Week:
Nevermind
I guess masturbating is worth the effort without the vibrator. My Valentine present helps:
RIP Hitachi
My Hitachi magic wand died two days ago. My Master says I need a frequently buyers club for those vibrators because I burn them out so regularly. Buy 10 and get the next one free!
Masturbating without it just seems like too much work. I ordered a new one right away. But it's not here yet. Sadness.
Masturbating without it just seems like too much work. I ordered a new one right away. But it's not here yet. Sadness.
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
Today's Tasks and Also Fun Things
Today my assigned tasks are:
-Work on the computer MTurks for pay (done)
-Clean the fridge
-Scoop dog poop in the yard
-Feed sheep
-Do laundry
-Vacuum
-Make dinner (started in the crockpot)
Fun things I plan to do:
-Play Pokemon Go
-Go for a walk
-Buy some pants for yoga (I'm not sure this counts as fun since I don't enjoy buying pants, but I will enjoy being able to wear pants that aren't full of holes).
-Go to free yoga for beginners class
-Work on the computer MTurks for pay (done)
-Clean the fridge
-Scoop dog poop in the yard
-Feed sheep
-Do laundry
-Vacuum
-Make dinner (started in the crockpot)
Fun things I plan to do:
-Play Pokemon Go
-Go for a walk
-Buy some pants for yoga (I'm not sure this counts as fun since I don't enjoy buying pants, but I will enjoy being able to wear pants that aren't full of holes).
-Go to free yoga for beginners class
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Not My Bed
I was getting worked over by two men, and looking pretty out of it at that point.
Monday, February 19, 2018
TMI Tuesday: Space, what Space?
1. Do you think that fate or destiny play a role in love?
a. Absolutely
b. For the most part
c. Somewhat
d. Not really
e. Not at all
I guess I'm going to go for d here. There could be a little bit of fate, maybe, but mostly I believe in happenstance and free will decisions people make to determine their own course.
2. True or False – If my sexual likes and dislikes are not in line with my partners, I change them.
I have tried. It's not like switching a light bulb on and off to change my likes. It's impossible for me to say "Oh, now I like this because he likes it," but it actually can happen with behavioral conditioning. My Master has done that for some things.
3. You and your partner are at a party. Both of you are equally acquainted with the hosts and the other people attending, although you aren’t the best of pals with any of the guests, you have conversed with them on a few occasions. During the socializing, what would you most likely do?
a. I’d stay glued to my partner’s side, conversing with the same people he/she is.
b. I’d be away from my partner, mingling with the other guests. c. I’d stay near my partner, but involved in different conversations. d. I spend some time by my partner’s side, and some time mingling. e. I let my partner drift or stick by me – as she/he wishes.
Pretty much a. I'd go for a short time to say hi to other people if I was worried about missing them because they might leave early, but not that much straying.
4. Have you ever gone through your partner’s journal, diary or personal letters?
a. Yes – I've read it/them from A to Z.
b. Yes – I’ve read some of it/them.
c. I know where she/he keeps them but I haven’t read any.
d. I know where she/he keeps them – I couldn’t help but look – but I haven’t read any.
e. No – I don’t know where she/he keeps them, and I have no intention of looking.
f. No – I don’t know where she/he keeps them, even though I’ve looked.
e. I don't even know if he has any letters, and I certainly wouldn't read them. He never keeps a journal.
5. Have you ever had a romantic partner go through your journal, diary, personal letters or text messages without your permission? How did you feel? What did you do?
I have always kept journals, and once I became his slave he naturally could do as he liked with them, including read them. He did too. Before that, I had always kept them private. When he read bits of them once without asking me he felt guilty and told me. I was embarrassed, but don't remember being angry. I didn't really do anything.
Bonus: What makes you feel loved?
My Master :) He tells me and shows me that he loves me often.
I love that. I need that.
TMI Tuesday blog, see more here: https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/19/tmi-tuesday-feb-20-2018/
a. Absolutely
b. For the most part
c. Somewhat
d. Not really
e. Not at all
I guess I'm going to go for d here. There could be a little bit of fate, maybe, but mostly I believe in happenstance and free will decisions people make to determine their own course.
2. True or False – If my sexual likes and dislikes are not in line with my partners, I change them.
I have tried. It's not like switching a light bulb on and off to change my likes. It's impossible for me to say "Oh, now I like this because he likes it," but it actually can happen with behavioral conditioning. My Master has done that for some things.
3. You and your partner are at a party. Both of you are equally acquainted with the hosts and the other people attending, although you aren’t the best of pals with any of the guests, you have conversed with them on a few occasions. During the socializing, what would you most likely do?
a. I’d stay glued to my partner’s side, conversing with the same people he/she is.
b. I’d be away from my partner, mingling with the other guests. c. I’d stay near my partner, but involved in different conversations. d. I spend some time by my partner’s side, and some time mingling. e. I let my partner drift or stick by me – as she/he wishes.
Pretty much a. I'd go for a short time to say hi to other people if I was worried about missing them because they might leave early, but not that much straying.
4. Have you ever gone through your partner’s journal, diary or personal letters?
a. Yes – I've read it/them from A to Z.
b. Yes – I’ve read some of it/them.
c. I know where she/he keeps them but I haven’t read any.
d. I know where she/he keeps them – I couldn’t help but look – but I haven’t read any.
e. No – I don’t know where she/he keeps them, and I have no intention of looking.
f. No – I don’t know where she/he keeps them, even though I’ve looked.
e. I don't even know if he has any letters, and I certainly wouldn't read them. He never keeps a journal.
5. Have you ever had a romantic partner go through your journal, diary, personal letters or text messages without your permission? How did you feel? What did you do?
I have always kept journals, and once I became his slave he naturally could do as he liked with them, including read them. He did too. Before that, I had always kept them private. When he read bits of them once without asking me he felt guilty and told me. I was embarrassed, but don't remember being angry. I didn't really do anything.
Bonus: What makes you feel loved?
My Master :) He tells me and shows me that he loves me often.
I love that. I need that.
TMI Tuesday blog, see more here: https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/19/tmi-tuesday-feb-20-2018/
Saturday, February 17, 2018
More Lessons of 2018
Well, nothing improves a poor attitude in a slave quite like some CNC buttsex at 5 am.
I was feeling kind of down yesterday, about myself and a lot of things, and I went to bed really early. I didn't even get up to put my collar on or brush my teeth, and Master didn't wake me.
Now I feel a lot better, though.
I was feeling kind of down yesterday, about myself and a lot of things, and I went to bed really early. I didn't even get up to put my collar on or brush my teeth, and Master didn't wake me.
Now I feel a lot better, though.
Friday, February 16, 2018
Busy Week
It's been a busy week, and requiring constant planning and re-planning to fit everything in. I envy those for whom slavery means turning off their brain and just submitting.
It's not like that at all for me. Not even close to that.
Just as an example, there was yesterday.
I got up at 5:00 to make Master's breakfast. I already had a message from Mystique asking if I wanted to go with her to help out Sarahnade with getting to the doctor and shopping again this week. Her PT was at 10, so we had to meet down at the Fleet Farm parking lot at 8:00. Sarahnade lives a little bit more than an hour from here. I asked Master if I could go and he said yes.
It was Thursday, so it was my day to do all the washing of sheets. So, first I stripped all the beds, but I didn't want to leave the laundry moldering for a half a day, so I didn't start it running. I cleaned the upstairs bathroom, and had all the dogs out and back in again, cleaned up the kitchen, had a shower, and started the dishwasher and was ready to leave the house a little after 7:00. I hoped to make a detour downtown for Pokemon supplies before meeting at Fleet Farm, which just took a few minutes.
Mystique and I walked around for about half an hour while we waited for the appointment to be done. Then we all had a fun time after the PT going to lunch (where they helped me stick to my diet, thank you thank you!). Mystique is doing Weight Watchers, so hers is a bit different, but still the same idea. We stopped by the store quick for some essentials, then Mystique and I drove back home.
I arrived at home at 2:00.
I started the laundry, cleaned up dog poop in the yard (lots of melting snow means lots of revealed poop!), fed the sheep and tried to do a bit of mucking in the barn (not much really). Then I put new sheets on the bed and vacuumed the upstairs.
I switched over the first load of laundry and then went to pick up the older kid at school (he's done with after school things at 4).
When I got home I flipped over the second load of laundry to the dryer and made dinner, chicken, in time to be out the door again at 5:30 to take the younger kid to his Thursday night club at school. While he was at the club I went to the grocery store to get some desserts (which I won't be eating). I forgot the sausage so I have to go back today.
I got home at about 8 pm, said hi to Master for a minute or two, looked at stuff on the computer, gathered the laundry from the basement and began putting it away (this isn't finished yet), let dogs out and back in, fed them and then it was basically bedtime. We had sex, which was delightful but rather hurried.
And sleep, happy sleep.
It's not like that at all for me. Not even close to that.
Just as an example, there was yesterday.
I got up at 5:00 to make Master's breakfast. I already had a message from Mystique asking if I wanted to go with her to help out Sarahnade with getting to the doctor and shopping again this week. Her PT was at 10, so we had to meet down at the Fleet Farm parking lot at 8:00. Sarahnade lives a little bit more than an hour from here. I asked Master if I could go and he said yes.
It was Thursday, so it was my day to do all the washing of sheets. So, first I stripped all the beds, but I didn't want to leave the laundry moldering for a half a day, so I didn't start it running. I cleaned the upstairs bathroom, and had all the dogs out and back in again, cleaned up the kitchen, had a shower, and started the dishwasher and was ready to leave the house a little after 7:00. I hoped to make a detour downtown for Pokemon supplies before meeting at Fleet Farm, which just took a few minutes.
Mystique and I walked around for about half an hour while we waited for the appointment to be done. Then we all had a fun time after the PT going to lunch (where they helped me stick to my diet, thank you thank you!). Mystique is doing Weight Watchers, so hers is a bit different, but still the same idea. We stopped by the store quick for some essentials, then Mystique and I drove back home.
I arrived at home at 2:00.
I started the laundry, cleaned up dog poop in the yard (lots of melting snow means lots of revealed poop!), fed the sheep and tried to do a bit of mucking in the barn (not much really). Then I put new sheets on the bed and vacuumed the upstairs.
I switched over the first load of laundry and then went to pick up the older kid at school (he's done with after school things at 4).
When I got home I flipped over the second load of laundry to the dryer and made dinner, chicken, in time to be out the door again at 5:30 to take the younger kid to his Thursday night club at school. While he was at the club I went to the grocery store to get some desserts (which I won't be eating). I forgot the sausage so I have to go back today.
I got home at about 8 pm, said hi to Master for a minute or two, looked at stuff on the computer, gathered the laundry from the basement and began putting it away (this isn't finished yet), let dogs out and back in, fed them and then it was basically bedtime. We had sex, which was delightful but rather hurried.
And sleep, happy sleep.
Fit For Friday 3
2/9 5 carbs, one 20 minute walk indoors.
2/10 PIZZA DAY 1 million carbs (or so), no walking to speak of.
2/11 17 carbs, a 20 minute walk indoors plus a 3 mile outdoor walk in the snow around the lake with Master. A beautiful day, still cold though.
2/12 9.5 carbs, one 10 minute walk in deep snow, plus another walk later outside for 20 minutes.
2/13 44 carbs after an unexpected lunch out. It was really good though. 40 minute walk outside.
2/14 Went out for Indian food with Dr.Peter. Carbs=oh fuck it, I have no idea. Dinner was leftovers from the restaurant. Walked 20 minutes outside.
2/15 8 carbs. SOOO hard to stick to a diet that day. I asked Mystique and Sarahnade to help me when we went out to lunch, to not allow me to order pancakes and French toast. And they didn't. We walked about 30 minutes outside while waiting for Sarahnade to get done with her physical therapy.
I lost one more pound this week.
2/10 PIZZA DAY 1 million carbs (or so), no walking to speak of.
2/11 17 carbs, a 20 minute walk indoors plus a 3 mile outdoor walk in the snow around the lake with Master. A beautiful day, still cold though.
2/12 9.5 carbs, one 10 minute walk in deep snow, plus another walk later outside for 20 minutes.
2/13 44 carbs after an unexpected lunch out. It was really good though. 40 minute walk outside.
2/14 Went out for Indian food with Dr.Peter. Carbs=oh fuck it, I have no idea. Dinner was leftovers from the restaurant. Walked 20 minutes outside.
2/15 8 carbs. SOOO hard to stick to a diet that day. I asked Mystique and Sarahnade to help me when we went out to lunch, to not allow me to order pancakes and French toast. And they didn't. We walked about 30 minutes outside while waiting for Sarahnade to get done with her physical therapy.
I lost one more pound this week.
Wednesday, February 14, 2018
V-Day
We celebrated yesterday because my Master had the day off, and today he
likely won't be home until late. Not because he got the days mixed up
and thought yesterday was the 14th (maybe). He told me to come
upstairs for my Valentine present, and then took his belt off and started
hitting me with it. He gave me a flogging, then he blindfolded me and had me lie on the floor
for the new toy he had got me. It's a knobbly glass dildo, a very intense feeling.
Afterward we had to take the cars for oil changes, and while we were waiting we went out to lunch and split a piece of cheesecake. It was all very romantic. I am going to get something for him today.
I'm all yours, Master!
Afterward we had to take the cars for oil changes, and while we were waiting we went out to lunch and split a piece of cheesecake. It was all very romantic. I am going to get something for him today.
Monday, February 12, 2018
TMI Tuesday for Valentines
1. Tell us two reasons why you would stay in a bad relationship.
That's a tough one. I know people do it, but I don't think that is something I would ever do. I value myself too much, and my own happiness. I'm guessing the primary reason is not having a way to support yourself, if people are staying while unhappy.
2. Do you wish your private life was kinkier?
I think we are pretty kinky, but anyway YES. I could always do more, at the whim or demand of my Master. Always. I don't think I've ever had a "That's too much kink for me" moment.
3. Tell us about your weirdest sexual experience.
Once while in subspace I hallucinated that Homer Simpson came out of the clouds to talk to me. I forget what he was saying now. It seems even weirder to say it than when I actually experienced it. Then, it was like "Well, why wouldn't Homer talk to me in the clouds?" Totally normal.
4. Can you have a totally hands-free orgasm?
Yes, my Master has taught me to orgasm on command. He doesn't need to be touching me. He's done it in a restaurant, in a gift shop, over text messages. Sometimes I have orgasmed without command from certain rhythms and duration of pain (whip, paddle, cane).
5. What tips can you give for staying hard (you personally or keeping your partner hard)?
Sucking/oral sex is always good for getting my Master hard.
Bonus: Is it okay to not celebrate Valentine’s Day even though you have a partner? Why or why not?
Sure, people can do whatever they want. It's not nice to disappoint your partner though, so you should see if you are in agreement before doing nothing. I like getting stuff on VD.
Sunday, February 11, 2018
Life In Balance
I was listening to some guy on the radio talk about depression, and how our society promotes things that add to depression and anxiety rather that working against it. I'm thinking about reading his book even though I'm not prone to depression myself. I probably haven't mentioned it, but our older child was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and anxiety. As his mother, this has been a painful thing to realize. I assure you, there is no aspect of self-blame that I have not indulged in. I think it is a hugely fucked up part of our society is that "It's always the mother's fault." I think Freud probably started this, but even though people are over Freud, they aren't over the blaming mothers thing.
The radio expert was not against drugs, but there are many things that we could be doing, not individually, but all together, that would make this less of an epidemic, besides just throw drugs (that don't always work that well) at people. This is the book: https://www.amazon.com/Lost-Connections-Uncovering-Depression-Unexpected/dp/163286830X.
One crucial part of his recommendations was just doing things with friends. Not social media friends, but actual face to face friends and really doing things.
He told one story about a man in Cambodia who lost a leg. His work in the fields became intolerably painful and he stayed in his house and spoke to no one anymore. He was depressed. The other people in his town got together, talked to him, listened to his problems and then they bought him a buffalo. This was his anti depressant. One- he had people that cared to listen to him- his friends. And two- now he had a job which didn't involve painfully standing on his prosthetic leg- he could milk his buffalo and became a dairy man instead.
This week my life has revolved around friends. One of our close friends who lives about an hour from us has a repeated bout of mysterious illness that came on suddenly and prevents her from working or driving for an unknown amount of time. She has to go to physical therapy twice a week. Mystique and I went to see her and take her to the doctor, we went out to lunch and then Mystique bought her groceries while we sat in the car and chatted. Our friend was worn out from the PT.
This was the same friend who let Master live with her for several days a week when he was working in her town, for a period of almost two years. She is a VERY good friend that we haven't seen enough of since she first had a bout of this illness. The doctors can't find a cause. She recovered, mostly, but now it is back two years later.
Saturday was Pizza Day. We had planned this, with Travis, Wolfmoon and MissV, last month, but Master ended up working every Saturday in February and couldn't go. He said I should just take the kids and go without him. I felt bad about this, but there was nothing I could do about it.
We drove down to Milwaukee (about 2.5 hours away) and spent all day making pizzas of various kinds and tasting them. This was enormous amounts of fun. Both the kids made delicious pizzas, and in addition to the regular kind there was also low carb pizza and yogurt crust pizza. I would be a bad food judge because I gave them all first prize! They were all delicious. MissV got the real judging job and she gave my older son the trophy, with the pizza that won her heart. He did a thin crust, pepperoni, sausage, onion and several cheeses.
I made a mushroom and black olive pizza to take home to Master.
Travis made a hatch chile pizza with a wonderful thick crust, and also a quick pizza that was just flour and Greek yogurt, zero rising time, for the crust. Wolfmoon made a low carb "meatza" which had ground hamburger for the crust. This was also delicious and I'll probably try it at home for my diet. My younger kid (he's 12) made a stuffed crust pepperoni which was also great.
We have two of the important depression-fighting strategies right here: meaningful work and good friends. I'd have to read the book to remember what all of them were.
The radio expert was not against drugs, but there are many things that we could be doing, not individually, but all together, that would make this less of an epidemic, besides just throw drugs (that don't always work that well) at people. This is the book: https://www.amazon.com/Lost-Connections-Uncovering-Depression-Unexpected/dp/163286830X.
One crucial part of his recommendations was just doing things with friends. Not social media friends, but actual face to face friends and really doing things.
He told one story about a man in Cambodia who lost a leg. His work in the fields became intolerably painful and he stayed in his house and spoke to no one anymore. He was depressed. The other people in his town got together, talked to him, listened to his problems and then they bought him a buffalo. This was his anti depressant. One- he had people that cared to listen to him- his friends. And two- now he had a job which didn't involve painfully standing on his prosthetic leg- he could milk his buffalo and became a dairy man instead.
This week my life has revolved around friends. One of our close friends who lives about an hour from us has a repeated bout of mysterious illness that came on suddenly and prevents her from working or driving for an unknown amount of time. She has to go to physical therapy twice a week. Mystique and I went to see her and take her to the doctor, we went out to lunch and then Mystique bought her groceries while we sat in the car and chatted. Our friend was worn out from the PT.
This was the same friend who let Master live with her for several days a week when he was working in her town, for a period of almost two years. She is a VERY good friend that we haven't seen enough of since she first had a bout of this illness. The doctors can't find a cause. She recovered, mostly, but now it is back two years later.
Saturday was Pizza Day. We had planned this, with Travis, Wolfmoon and MissV, last month, but Master ended up working every Saturday in February and couldn't go. He said I should just take the kids and go without him. I felt bad about this, but there was nothing I could do about it.
We drove down to Milwaukee (about 2.5 hours away) and spent all day making pizzas of various kinds and tasting them. This was enormous amounts of fun. Both the kids made delicious pizzas, and in addition to the regular kind there was also low carb pizza and yogurt crust pizza. I would be a bad food judge because I gave them all first prize! They were all delicious. MissV got the real judging job and she gave my older son the trophy, with the pizza that won her heart. He did a thin crust, pepperoni, sausage, onion and several cheeses.
I made a mushroom and black olive pizza to take home to Master.
Travis made a hatch chile pizza with a wonderful thick crust, and also a quick pizza that was just flour and Greek yogurt, zero rising time, for the crust. Wolfmoon made a low carb "meatza" which had ground hamburger for the crust. This was also delicious and I'll probably try it at home for my diet. My younger kid (he's 12) made a stuffed crust pepperoni which was also great.
We have two of the important depression-fighting strategies right here: meaningful work and good friends. I'd have to read the book to remember what all of them were.
Friday, February 9, 2018
Fit For Friday Number 2
Fit For Friday Results
It is the day to weigh in, and I ate SO MUCH last night. I need to go do it though.
2/2 12.5 carbs, 30 minutes of walking/jogging and stair climbing in the house
2/3 This was our day to go out to eat with friends, so I had a total of 41 carbs for the day. I walked for 20 minutes plus shoveled snow and did outside chores for an hour.
2/4 5 carbs, 20 minute walk in the house. I wasn't feeling that great at night, a little nauseated. I got up and had a piece of cheese.
2/5 11.5 carbs. I did a 15 minute cardio dance work out video from You Tube for variety, and also later on a 10 minute walk interspersed with stairs. I was feeling good until about 10 at night, and then sick again.
2/6 10 carbs. I did a 15 minute walk outside and 10 minutes later on inside. Feeling good, but really hungry before dinner.
2/7 Went out for lunch, but stayed on the diet. 5 carbs. 15 minutes of walking in the house, with some stairs. Feeling really full after dinner.
2/8 About 40 carbs yesterday. We went out to eat again, and it is really tough not having a bit of everything they put in front of you when it is all so good- our favorite Japanese restaurant does everything wonderfully.
I worked out with a Zumba video for 20 minutes, inventing (possibly) a new thing I call Zumba with puppies. You may have heard of goat yoga. This is something like that. Puppy Zumba involves a large puppy leaping on you and also you have to constantly stoop and reach to rescue her ball which she keeps rolling under the coffee table. Later on I went for a 25 minute walk outdoors, which was really great, if cold, since it was only about 7 degrees here.
Here is a picture from my Tuesday walk. It was -9F that day.
Edit to add: I lost 1 pound this week.
It is the day to weigh in, and I ate SO MUCH last night. I need to go do it though.
2/2 12.5 carbs, 30 minutes of walking/jogging and stair climbing in the house
2/3 This was our day to go out to eat with friends, so I had a total of 41 carbs for the day. I walked for 20 minutes plus shoveled snow and did outside chores for an hour.
2/4 5 carbs, 20 minute walk in the house. I wasn't feeling that great at night, a little nauseated. I got up and had a piece of cheese.
2/5 11.5 carbs. I did a 15 minute cardio dance work out video from You Tube for variety, and also later on a 10 minute walk interspersed with stairs. I was feeling good until about 10 at night, and then sick again.
2/6 10 carbs. I did a 15 minute walk outside and 10 minutes later on inside. Feeling good, but really hungry before dinner.
2/7 Went out for lunch, but stayed on the diet. 5 carbs. 15 minutes of walking in the house, with some stairs. Feeling really full after dinner.
2/8 About 40 carbs yesterday. We went out to eat again, and it is really tough not having a bit of everything they put in front of you when it is all so good- our favorite Japanese restaurant does everything wonderfully.
I worked out with a Zumba video for 20 minutes, inventing (possibly) a new thing I call Zumba with puppies. You may have heard of goat yoga. This is something like that. Puppy Zumba involves a large puppy leaping on you and also you have to constantly stoop and reach to rescue her ball which she keeps rolling under the coffee table. Later on I went for a 25 minute walk outdoors, which was really great, if cold, since it was only about 7 degrees here.
Here is a picture from my Tuesday walk. It was -9F that day.
Wednesday, February 7, 2018
When Nipple Clamps Attack
Choosing nipple clamps came back to bite me in the erm, nipple, of all places, right?
Master had me kneeling at his feet, wearing the nipple clamps, with a butt plug in, trying my best to give a blow job and not moan too much. Difficult! I cried when he took the clamps off, when all the blood rushes back in, just when you think it can't get any worse, that's the worst part.
He got so close he couldn't hold back anymore, and came all over my tits. He said I'd earned a beating, in a good way. So he took me upstairs and started with a little "warm up" with the belt. He put the hood over my head and tightened it down. My ass and back were soon warm, that's for sure. He switched to the single tail whip, leaving some little stingy lines up and down. Then he got out the evil, evil stick. It has a name, which suits it "The Misery Stick". It's very thin. His swings were HARD too. I was jumping about a little. After thoroughly "sticking it" to me ( I know, I know, I'm in one of those moods) he soothed me with a nice long flogging.
He had me find my way to the bed by feel, wearing the hood. I know just where each piece of furniture is, from feeling my way by night many times, so I just felt along until I was there, and then flopped down on my back, hoping he would give my poor bruised backside a rest. He took off the hood and had me suck him until he was hard enough to fuck me again. It felt so good and tight with the butt plug in. Master use the Hitatchi on me and made me come a few times before we snuggled down into bed to relax. I was extremely cold at that time, in reaction to the play I get very cold. So I snuggled a lot. We got up and took a shower eventually, where I knelt to receive my usual anointing.
Master had me kneeling at his feet, wearing the nipple clamps, with a butt plug in, trying my best to give a blow job and not moan too much. Difficult! I cried when he took the clamps off, when all the blood rushes back in, just when you think it can't get any worse, that's the worst part.
He got so close he couldn't hold back anymore, and came all over my tits. He said I'd earned a beating, in a good way. So he took me upstairs and started with a little "warm up" with the belt. He put the hood over my head and tightened it down. My ass and back were soon warm, that's for sure. He switched to the single tail whip, leaving some little stingy lines up and down. Then he got out the evil, evil stick. It has a name, which suits it "The Misery Stick". It's very thin. His swings were HARD too. I was jumping about a little. After thoroughly "sticking it" to me ( I know, I know, I'm in one of those moods) he soothed me with a nice long flogging.
He had me find my way to the bed by feel, wearing the hood. I know just where each piece of furniture is, from feeling my way by night many times, so I just felt along until I was there, and then flopped down on my back, hoping he would give my poor bruised backside a rest. He took off the hood and had me suck him until he was hard enough to fuck me again. It felt so good and tight with the butt plug in. Master use the Hitatchi on me and made me come a few times before we snuggled down into bed to relax. I was extremely cold at that time, in reaction to the play I get very cold. So I snuggled a lot. We got up and took a shower eventually, where I knelt to receive my usual anointing.
Tuesday, February 6, 2018
TMI Tuesday: Choices and Choices
1. Pancakes or waffles?
Now that's just cruel.
2. Steak or Lobster?
Neither. I used to love steak, but I can't eat it anymore. My stomach has a problem with any beef.
3. Freckles or dimples?
Oh, dimples. Take a look at Trevor Noah.
4. Board games or video games?
Board games for sure. I'm not much for video games.
5. Dress up or dress down?
I like both. Mostly down I guess, but I also like to wear a skirt and go out. Skirts aren't the best for farm work. They get full of hay.
6. Backseat of car or kitchen counter? (Of course I’m talking about a spontaneous place to have sex)
Having tried both, the kitchen counter is way more comfortable. Now, the back of a van that is full of hay also has possibilities.
7. Nipple clamps or handcuffs? Tell us why you chose your particular sexual encounter enhancement?
I love/hate nipple clamps. I have never tried handcuffs but I know a few people that got lasting nerve damage from using them. I would take leather cuffs for $100, Alex.
But of just the two choices, I pick nipple clamps (ow!).
Bonus: How was your weekend? Would you like to repeat it or never see that weekend again?
It was pretty good. Our plan to go out to dinner with the whole munch group was foiled by a snow storm, so we ended up with only the most local (and closest friends) going out to dinner somewhere much closer to us. This was a lot of fun, even if the food wasn't the best. I worried that the other person would not get my message and wonder why we didn't show up, but it turned out they had a decent size group up there, so that was a relief. I hated to think of him waiting all by himself at the restaurant.
Master and I had a bit of playtime Saturday night and Sunday night which involved (see above) nipple clamps! And having me tied down by my leash. I may have been sleepy, but never too sleepy for that.
https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/06/february-6-2018/
Now that's just cruel.
2. Steak or Lobster?
Neither. I used to love steak, but I can't eat it anymore. My stomach has a problem with any beef.
3. Freckles or dimples?
Oh, dimples. Take a look at Trevor Noah.
4. Board games or video games?
Board games for sure. I'm not much for video games.
5. Dress up or dress down?
I like both. Mostly down I guess, but I also like to wear a skirt and go out. Skirts aren't the best for farm work. They get full of hay.
6. Backseat of car or kitchen counter? (Of course I’m talking about a spontaneous place to have sex)
Having tried both, the kitchen counter is way more comfortable. Now, the back of a van that is full of hay also has possibilities.
7. Nipple clamps or handcuffs? Tell us why you chose your particular sexual encounter enhancement?
I love/hate nipple clamps. I have never tried handcuffs but I know a few people that got lasting nerve damage from using them. I would take leather cuffs for $100, Alex.
But of just the two choices, I pick nipple clamps (ow!).
Bonus: How was your weekend? Would you like to repeat it or never see that weekend again?
It was pretty good. Our plan to go out to dinner with the whole munch group was foiled by a snow storm, so we ended up with only the most local (and closest friends) going out to dinner somewhere much closer to us. This was a lot of fun, even if the food wasn't the best. I worried that the other person would not get my message and wonder why we didn't show up, but it turned out they had a decent size group up there, so that was a relief. I hated to think of him waiting all by himself at the restaurant.
Master and I had a bit of playtime Saturday night and Sunday night which involved (see above) nipple clamps! And having me tied down by my leash. I may have been sleepy, but never too sleepy for that.
https://tmituesdayblog.wordpress.com/2018/02/06/february-6-2018/
Saturday, February 3, 2018
High School Musical
Last night we went to the high school musical production of Fiddler on the Roof. They played to a solidly packed auditorium and it was thoroughly enjoyable. Some of our son's friends were in the musical and he'd done a few stints early on as stage crew making props, although he's not doing it now. I hadn't attended a high school musical or play since I was IN high school, I'd never seen Fiddler on the Roof performed live and I think the last musical I saw live was... I just don't remember.
It was a full three hour show and I loved it.
On the way home my Master mentioned how his perspective had changed. When he was younger all his sympathy was with the daughters, and none at all with the father Tevye, who is kind of a bully who shouts a lot as well as a buffoon. But now, he sees a lot more sympathy for a man whose traditions and world are all falling apart too quickly. And Master had fun poking me during the parts where they talk about not giving girls their way. Poke, poke, "Right! All down hill after that!"
For myself, I'd always thought Tevye was a sympathetic character (I've seen the movie many times), even with his faults.
Tonight we are going out to dinner with some of our friends from the munch group, which will be fun and hopefully the roads will be ok because it is snowing today.
It was a full three hour show and I loved it.
On the way home my Master mentioned how his perspective had changed. When he was younger all his sympathy was with the daughters, and none at all with the father Tevye, who is kind of a bully who shouts a lot as well as a buffoon. But now, he sees a lot more sympathy for a man whose traditions and world are all falling apart too quickly. And Master had fun poking me during the parts where they talk about not giving girls their way. Poke, poke, "Right! All down hill after that!"
For myself, I'd always thought Tevye was a sympathetic character (I've seen the movie many times), even with his faults.
Tonight we are going out to dinner with some of our friends from the munch group, which will be fun and hopefully the roads will be ok because it is snowing today.
Friday, February 2, 2018
Taken By Surprise
Wednesday night Master gave no indication of any indication of wanting me. I had gone up to fold clothes and got suddenly so exhausted that I had to lie down for a bit. An hour later he came and got me to finish my chores, letting dogs out and so on. He had already done the dishes, which is one of my jobs.
After that I was in the bedroom, kneeling on the floor, head down, arms out as normal and he came in. Instead of saying "Into bed now" as I was expecting, he walked around behind me and lifted the back of my robe. I felt his fingers rubbing me. I began to get wet, a little. Then he took me.
A while later, after we were snuggled in bed, he said to me "Isn't it great not to have to ask, just to take what I want, because it is mine?"
I agree with him. It is good to be his.
After that I was in the bedroom, kneeling on the floor, head down, arms out as normal and he came in. Instead of saying "Into bed now" as I was expecting, he walked around behind me and lifted the back of my robe. I felt his fingers rubbing me. I began to get wet, a little. Then he took me.
A while later, after we were snuggled in bed, he said to me "Isn't it great not to have to ask, just to take what I want, because it is mine?"
I agree with him. It is good to be his.
Fit for Friday. This Time Really on Friday
My goals for Fit for Friday:
- walk more
-stay on a low carb diet
- continue yoga and stretching
Here's my week so far:
1/28
16 carbs, several small walks (not sure how far)
1/29
11 carbs, feeling really good, 1 mile of walking total, split into three small walks
1/30
6.5 carbs, feeling super full after roast pork loin dinner. I took puppy for a one mile walk even though it was cold. If feels good to move around.
1/31
11 carbs, about 2 miles of walking, divided up into 4 short walks.
2/1
7 carbs. Feeling really great! Dang, it is so freezing cold and windy out. Twenty minutes of walking, jogging and stair climbing in the house.
It looks like I have lost about 5 lbs this week (inaccurate bathroom scale). I'm feeling good about this. Also, I'm planning a cheat meal for Saturday night because we are going out for dinner and I will be unlikely to find anything with such low carbohydrates on the menu.
Here is Fondles original Fit for Friday post if you want to join in: http://fondles.blogspot.sg/2018/01/fit-for-friday.html
- walk more
-stay on a low carb diet
- continue yoga and stretching
Here's my week so far:
1/28
16 carbs, several small walks (not sure how far)
1/29
11 carbs, feeling really good, 1 mile of walking total, split into three small walks
1/30
6.5 carbs, feeling super full after roast pork loin dinner. I took puppy for a one mile walk even though it was cold. If feels good to move around.
1/31
11 carbs, about 2 miles of walking, divided up into 4 short walks.
2/1
7 carbs. Feeling really great! Dang, it is so freezing cold and windy out. Twenty minutes of walking, jogging and stair climbing in the house.
It looks like I have lost about 5 lbs this week (inaccurate bathroom scale). I'm feeling good about this. Also, I'm planning a cheat meal for Saturday night because we are going out for dinner and I will be unlikely to find anything with such low carbohydrates on the menu.
Here is Fondles original Fit for Friday post if you want to join in: http://fondles.blogspot.sg/2018/01/fit-for-friday.html
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
-
I just made what would have been a hilarious joke on social media, if only the one other person who would get it would have been around to...
-
I've been into clicker training for many years, as a dog training method. It was begun by Karen Pryor as a way to train dolphins more h...
-
A lot of people have had to start their life over when the world ended on them in one way or another. A lot have had the crash hit worse th...
