The State of the World and the State of Our Relationship (TW)

This is somewhat too much. 

When the world is frightening, I feel like grabbing a little safety for myself by imposing hard limits.  There is too much real fear.


When the world and people in it seem out of control and deliberately trying to endanger the country, I feel like grabbing back some personal control for myself.  There is too much real chaos.


When there are so many restrictions on things I can't do any more, imposed by the larger society, I feel like I need the freedom to choose when to wash the sheets and how much toilet paper I can use.   There is too much real outside restriction.


Most frightening of all, I fear most for my Master's health. He's working with many people every day with inadequate protection measures.  He's got several health risk factors for worse outcomes from covid.  Our state is not even close to the peak of where this disease is going, and we've opened it up again (thanks, Supreme Court assholes) and people are acting like the plague is over.   The fear is like a hard ball in my stomach that never goes away.  If I lost him, I don't see how I could go on.   The worst is feeling like I need to take back some real autonomy.