Friday, August 17, 2018

Clit Burn

I have used my Hitachi so much the last few days, usually while having sex but also on my own (I'm allowed to masturbate once if he's not home) that I have burned myself.   So today Master said I had to give it a break on the vibrator, but I can masturbate other ways if I like.  Now I'm having a tough time deciding if I want to, or if I just want to wait!!!  

Thursday, August 16, 2018

My Mom and The Speaker Phone

This is a bad combination when Master is around.

I was talking to her in the car after we'd dropped off the kids.  Master was driving.  I had the speaker phone on, I don't know why.  This was probably a mistake.  

Mom says to me "You and him be sure to enjoy your time without the kids.  That is precious". 

I blandly said "We will", but at the same time Master from the other side is saying "Oh, I don't know, I think I'm too old and tired for all that" with a wink in his voice.   

Earlier that morning he'd been telling me how he was planning to beat and then ass-rape me now that there was no one to hear me scream.

Then my mom is saying to me how I should entice him with a look, you know, the one you can't do when the kids are around.   

By the look on my Master's face I can see that he's thinking of something to say that will truly kill me off from embarrassment this time.  

I rush to say goodbye and hang up before he gets to make any remark.  
Or maybe he hesitated out of self preservation.

I mean, we are talking to a woman who has more than once said if he ever hurt me she wouldn't hesitate to sew him up in the sheets and beat him to death with a 2 x 4.  

We spent the rest of the trip home getting each other all hot and bothered in various ways.   Master had blue balls for the first time in very many years and he wanted me to pay for that.  He fucked me and then beat me, but the ass raping threat was put off until a future date.  

Kink of the Week: Face Slapping

There is an art to face slapping.  Too soft and it can be anti-climactic and meh.  Too hard and you can do real damage- dislocate jaws, detach retina, joggle the brain too much.   

I like a slap on my face that stings.  One that I wish I had clenched my jaws for but it took me by surprise so that I didn't prepare.

I have a fantasy of being humiliated in public by a casual slap across the face when I said something out of line.   I doubt my Master would ever do this in public as it's not really wise.  But maybe in a kinky gathering or party.  I have hope.   The humiliation of that is the main thing to me, more than the sensation physically.

There was one time he slapped me that wasn't connected with sex, just as a rebuke when I said something, and that hit me in an entirely different way, really powerfully.  I play with it in my mind regularly, and that was years ago.  

When we have sex or play, Master slaps in the face frequently.  It makes me really aroused and can even be a trigger to orgasm.  It makes me feel like I'm his thing, his dirty whore.  I like that. 

Wednesday, August 15, 2018

Already A Good Night

Master called me on his way home from work and told me to be naked except for my collar and kneeling by the door when he got home.   I was, and it was good.  He had me serve his dinner like usual except I was stark naked.  Now we are sharing a beer.   

We Are Back!

Two of us anyway.  We left the kids with the grandparents for a couple weeks, so we have the house to ourselves (yeehaw!).

In 10 days we covered 16 different states/districts:  Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Ohio, Pennsylvania, New Jersey, New York, Connecticut, Massachusetts, Washington DC., Maryland, Virginia, North Carolina, Kentucky, Tennessee and Missouri.  We drove in Boston and New York (and lived!).  We visited the USS Constitution, Bunker Hill, some aquariums and nature areas, Gettysburg for several very hot hours, and also a friend that I've known for a long time on Fet, but never met in person until now.  That was really wonderful!  She's the best.

We visited colleges:  Kent State, Carnegie Mellon, Yale, Chapel Hill in North Carolina. 

Master had many shower blowjobs until we got to North Carolina and our friend booked us a hotel with two rooms.  There still wasn't a good way to do beatings (too loud), but bed sex again was awesome.  

On the way home I teased Master and he teased me until we were both worked into quite a state.  He fucked me right away, then a bit later he beat me with the canes and paddles and belts.

It's good to be home.  

Saturday, August 4, 2018


We are going on vacation for a while, so see you when we get back!  Many adventures to be had, hopefully good ones mostly.

Tuesday, July 31, 2018

TMI Tuesday

1. One thing that you will never do again?  

Be 25.  

2. Who knows you the best?  

My Master.

3. Do you think a relationship should be 50/50 all the time? 

No.  One saying I like is "Fair is where they have the cotton candy and pony rides".   It can't be totally unbalanced to the point where one person never gets their needs met, but I think aiming for a constant 50/50 is not realistic.

4. When was your most recent act of kindness? Was it appreciated?  

An online friend asked me to join a suicide support group to give supportive messages to people who are reaching out for help. I did it, but I can't say it has been the easiest thing I've ever done.  Yes, she appreciated the help with the group.

5. Are you a good friend? Why or why not?  

All I can say is I try.  I have a lot of anxiety over whether I have annoyed or irked people and they just aren't telling me. 

6. What is something that you tried really hard to like but just couldn’t? 

Doing 69.  Just not fun.  

 Bonus: How was your month of July? Did you do anything fun, interesting, new?

Yes, yes, yes!  So many new and fun things.  There was the strap-on and dildo fun, and there was the shooting and fishing weekend.

Clit Burn

I have used my Hitachi so much the last few days, usually while having sex but also on my own (I'm allowed to masturbate once if he'...