Friday, February 6, 2015

Just A Day

I am extremely "meh" today.  Don't know why.  Normally I skip blogging on days like this.

I cleaned the stove and the oven, started some chicken in the crockpot, swept everything, vacuumed, dusted, cleaned the space under the downstairs bathroom sink out, then the rest of the bathroom, played around on Fetlife some, did my exercise for the day, wished I had some cheese to make cheese toast, instead made cinnamon toast, masturbated, and now I'm here.     I guess I should go do some more work if I don't have anything to say. 

Last night Master used me for his holes of pleasure.  He choked me quite a bit with his hand and my collar.

Tomorrow we are going to a rope demo/munch and I should be excited, but I can only summon up a lot of "meh".

It is like there are a million things worrying at me but all just out of reach of my mind finding out what they are.   Also, Master said he doesn't like it when he goes to stroke my face and I flinch.  This makes me feel terrible in a helpless sort of way.  I like to be slapped, but I can't help it if it makes me flinchy.  Then he further confused me by saying my flinching makes him want to slap me.  I have a sad about this.   Any suggestions?

2 comments:

  1. Sorry to here you are a bit off today.

    I'm not sure if this is the same thing but when my wife is threatening/teasing her balls I am unsure what she is expecting of me. It seems to be dependent upon my initial reaction. If I submit to it the first time that establishs the rules for today. If I accept her squeezing and hitting then the game seems to be about making me flinch. If I initially flinch then the games seems to reverse and ends when I willingly accept her domination of her balls. Not sure any of this helps. DtBHC.

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  2. (((Hugs)))

    no suggestion re slapping and flinching but what DtBHC made sense. I'm sure you guys will work it outxxx

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