Tuesday, July 9, 2013

It is Coming Soon

As in THIS FRIDAY!

We  are going to MadTownKinkFest, and it will be our first time there.  On top of that, it is only our second big kink event, the first having been Twisted Tryst.

I'm getting pretty nervous now.  Ok, I have been scared for 2 months, but mostly I have been pretending I'm not.   Master is going to have me... dang, I can't even type it... well, he's going to share me.  Mystique is arranging it with people she trusts.  And I trust her.   I'll be blindfolded and not told who is involved.  It will be anonymous.   I won't know how many or who before, during or possibly even after.  I have never done anything like this before, and though on one hand I know I can do it, must do it, and would follow any order he gave me, on the other I'm afraid I will freak out and bolt.  He has promised to force me if necessary, and I'm ok with that.  I actually prefer to know that I don't have a choice rather than to think that I have options.  

So, I'm very excited about the event as a whole, and very nervous about this one thing.  I keep alternating between thinking it's not really going to happen, like maybe not enough volunteers will be found (really?!)  and thinking it might be fun.  Or horrible and scary.  Or fun and scary.   

3 comments:

  1. All of those feelings make perfect sense to me.

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  2. Wow, that is so very honest and raw. For me, that is one of my fantasies that I would love to have fulfilled!

    Have fun, and don't forget to kiss or fuck and tell =)

    hugs,
    fiona

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  3. It has been a fantasy for me too, for a long time. But being confronted with fantasy in reality, and this soon, it is unnerving.

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