When You Want What You Don't Want

Or perhaps it is when you don't want what you want.

See, there is this thing that my Master wants to do.   He thinks it sounds hot.  He knows I think it sounds hot -- in fantasy.  But I still have all sorts of angst and worries about doing it in actuality.  Especially because he tells me he wants me to do it because he thinks I'll like it.  Because of all the things I do for him that he loves, he wants to do this thing for me.  

That I love in fantasy.  

That I'm REALLY not sure of loving in reality.   

Isn't that just a fucky mindfuck? 

When he puts it that way, like it is a gift for me, then I start having a different kind of angst.  An "Oh gee, thanks but no thanks, you really shouldn't have, really", sort of feeling.   

So I tell him that. 

And then he tells me I'm doing it no matter what.  HE thinks it will be hot.  And whose opinion counts here?  Oh. Yeah.

And it will be the easy way (eagerly) or the hard way (force).  

If I really hate it, I can red out in the middle.  Then he will ruthlessly mock me forever more (this is exactly what he said) for being unable to finish the scene.  I'm just stubborn enough, when faced with that choice, to keep going no matter what, and I'm pretty sure he knows that he has just taken away my choice with that.

As Admiral Akbar would say "It's a TRAP!" 

Also, either way it goes, it will provide him with much fodder for humiliation for eons to come. (Squeee!  Help!  Yay?) Which he is very much looking forward to doing.  

I'm sure this goes against all the rules of the internet Domly Doms, but he has these ways of getting me right where he wants me.