TMI Tuesday: getting emotional

1. What would you do to leave a great impression with a person on your first date?

Just the thought of attempting to make a good impression gives me palpitations.  I would just try to act normal, I guess, and not die of fright.

2. Do you usually follow your heart or your head?

Both.  I give them equal weight.

3. If your significant other told you to jump off a tall cliff and told you that you’ll land safely because there’s a net you can’t see yet, would you blindly trust your s.o. and jump?

Sure. In theory. It is impossible to know what would really happen unless you have been in that situation. 

4. How do you support your significant other?

I listen for his needs and wants and try to accommodate them at all times.  Sometimes support means shutting up and doing what I'm told and other times support means giving him a different opinion or different advice than what he had previously thought of, but in a supportive and respectful way.

5. What types of things or gestures/acts make you feel loved?

His hand in my hair, shoving me up against the wall or counter for some rough groping.  Being on my knees in front of him.  When he hurts me. And having my hair stroked while I sit at his feet, with my head on his lap.


6. What types of things or gestures/acts make you feel respected?

When he treats me like a complete and total doormat/slave/slutty cock hole.  I know it is backwards from most people, but I feel that treatment recognizes my innermost desires and essential self most strongly.

7. Can you have emotional intimacy without physical intimacy? Explain.

Sure, you can.  It is difficult for me though. I am a very physical person, touch being my love language.  It is possible but not easy to communicate on an intimate level without physically touching someone. 

Bonus:  In 2016, what was your most conflicted emotional moment?

It was the week or two after the US election, possibly including up til now.   I felt every sort of bad emotion: horror, fear, despair, along with some more positive emotions: wanting to come together with friends to support them, love for my fellow human beings who were also in pain, empathy.  I feel conflicted in wanting to make a difference in the world, wanting to volunteer and be an activist, but at the same time not wanting to anything that conflicts with being at my Master's service.