Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Your complete submission

Monday night Master said to me "Your complete submission makes me so turned on,"  right before he fucked me.   Ever since then I keep hearing those words over and over in my head.   I was totally submitting at the time, in my body, in my actions, in my words, to something I didn't want.  At. All.

I was attempting to subdue my mind also, to make my thoughts give in to what he wanted.   It was hard, oh so hard.   It meant so much to me to hear him say those words.


2 comments:

  1. Its always good when they let us know how well we are doing, how pleased they are with us......you must be beaming.

    x

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    1. It took me a while to start beaming. The next day, actually. Right afterward I was closer to crying. Then when he was done I was crying. Stupid emotions.

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