Master has given his notice at work and will be gone at the end of this month. Which will probably mean we will have to move. It may even mean he will move somewhere else temporarily while I stay here with the kids and try to sell the farm (this scares the hell out of me). I can't even tell you how depressed and scared I am by this whole thing. I don't want to move. I love it here, I have always felt it is my dream house. I love the countryside. Our kids have all their friends here, and it will totally suck for them to move somewhere new, especially the older one who doesn't make friends as easily. I have a whole support system in this town that will be gone.
Plus, the animals. I don't know if we will find a place to be able keep them all. I don't know anything. But hell, we do what we have to do, right? We'll survive, just like we always do, and whatever happens I know I will still be his.
Wednesday night we were both exhausted and depressed about this, but though we tried to go to bed early, sleep was not happening. We talked for a while, about what is going to happen, and he reassured me and held me, said we'd be ok. Still, no sleep was coming.
Finally he said, well, there is only one thing to do then, let's fuck. We did, and he finished up by fucking me in my ass, leaving me well used and making the much needed sleep come in a welcoming blanket for both of us.
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My thoughts are with you and Master.
ReplyDeleteBig Hug,
joey
Thank you joey!
DeleteWhen all else fails...have sex! Sounds like a good plant to me! :)
ReplyDeleteSeriously, though, I wish you both the best. Things will work out the way they are meant to, which may just surprise you and be better than expected. At lest that's my wish for you!
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I am trying to be hopeful. You just never know.
DeleteOh KSST ... I've been there and done that. I am so sorry. It IS so scary and depressing and upsetting. BUT you have each other and that is a gift. Your children - even the one who has a harder time, will make friends. Your solution for insomnia was brilliant! Might need that every night =)
ReplyDelete(((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))
Thank you! Hugs back!
DeleteOh ksst
ReplyDeleteI can only imagine how potentially stressful this must be, but you said it so perfectly when you said it doesnt matter as you will still be his....keep that thought with you what ever may happen.
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I will keep that in my mind- it is the most important thing.
DeleteI adore you both and we will just support you long distance
ReplyDeleteI don't want to be long distance :(. Kisses!
DeleteBest wishes to you and your family. You can do this!
ReplyDeleteThank you!
DeleteSeems that I'm always late these days. Better late than never though, right?
ReplyDeleteThis sounds really difficult. At least you have each other, so no matter what, you aren't losing what matters most.
Good luck! Maybe it will turn out to be one of those blessings in a really deceptive disguise.
I appreciate all the comments, no matter when. I get these little notifications,see. :) They make my day, actually, so thank you.
DeleteI'm late to, but... bleergh. Change can really suck at times!
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