I even fantasize about various forms of pee play when I masturbate sometimes, that is how strong a fetish it has become.
I didn't write about the first time he pissed on me in the shower, because he told me not to. It was an act he felt a bit weird and icky about doing to me. He liked to do it, but he didn't want everyone to know, so for a long time I didn't mention it in my blog. It was not a big deal to me either way.
Then I guess he decided it wasn't that embarrassing and he said I could put it in here.
Since I wasn't writing about it, I don't remember the first time, or the second or third. That is a big reason I write, because otherwise my memory is crap. Perhaps Master remembers and will fill in some details tomorrow.
Currently, it is something done as a regular ritual, once or twice a week, or whenever we shower together. It is usually after we have played and/or fucked.
When he tells me "Hurry up and get in the shower, I really have to piss", I smile. I want it.
He tells or motions me to kneel at his feet in the bathtub, then he waters me: my chest, groin, sometimes my face and hair, sometimes in my mouth. Just lately he has been ordering me to suck afterward and get that little bit out.
My feelings?
The number one is the feeling of being possession. He's marking me as his in the most primal way possible, like the animals do.
"This is mine".
I feel very much owned, like a thing, and objectified. This makes me feel happy and secure, loved and owned.
The other feeling is humiliation. Being pissed on is humiliating for me, but since I enjoy that feeling, and it turns me on, this is also a good thing. Yes, sometimes pee is extra concentrated and smells bad, but that is just part of the humiliation. The thought often crosses my mind that I'm his nasty little slut. Or he tells me right out that I am.
The last is harder to define. I guess it is just about obedience, of being a slave and having to obey. Before I was a slave this is not something I would have allowed, but because I am, not only do I have to take it however he chooses to give it, I actually came to enjoy it.
I fantasize about other things: bladder control, forced wetting, doing all this outside, doing it in front of people, doing it with other people. It is all part of my humiliation kink. So far we have just dipped a toe in the shallow end. Heh.
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It most definitely is one of those things either people will hate or love, and thats understandable.
ReplyDeleteBut, like you, i love it, everything about it, being made to wet myself when im fully clothed was something i initially was not keen on, especially being made to stay in it...but yeah now its...well hot and humiliating...if rather smelly lol
ps..how do you get the picture of the KOTW to be able click on it...i couldnt figure that out?
DeleteYou found the "get badge here" page on KOTW? If so, there is that code you paste in, but you have to switch the blog from compose to HTML. On mine there is a little tab at the top seen while in edit/write post mode. Then it looks all like messy computer code writing but you just paste that code at the bottom or top. Then switch back to compose and it should appear properly.
Deletethank you, i shall do that on the next one.
DeleteThat feeling of being a possession, through the very primal act of being marked, is one I get too, it is what often brings out the humiliation feelings. Lovely post.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Bleuame.
DeleteI love the feeling.
ReplyDeleteVelvet x
It's nice that you love him marking you in the most primal way possible. Another step forward in you being his slave.
ReplyDeleteFD
I completely understand the humiliation aspect but I can't get past the smell, luckily for me he feels the same and doesn't want to mark me in that way.
ReplyDeleteI just read your OCTOBER 1, 2016 post about bukkake but you mentioned Piss Play and it raised a question for me. I think you've kind of answered it for me in this post, but I'll ask it anyway:
ReplyDeleteI'm not into piss play but the fetish intrigues me. I don't understand what you would get out of it, but I gather from this post it's the power dynamic that gets you off. You're humiliated and you like that - fair enough.
Have you ever considered spreading your legs and having Master piss on your clit? Would that be sexually pleasurable, or am I missing the point entirely? I imagine a long hot stream on your erect clit might be similar to a tongue? Maybe you would need a bunch of guys (one after the other) to make it work? (Which is why the Bukkake post made me think of it)
He has done that, and yes it is quite pleasurable, but also humiliating at the same time- which is the best part. Thank you for the questions.
DeleteI don't think he'd ever let other men do it to me, but who knows. It is also kind of a primal territorial marking thing for him.