Yes! All I have to do is go back and look at my original writings, especially the Beginning of the Beginning, to see how my perspective has shifted. I believe I have become more service oriented, and also more, for lack of a better word, slavish.
I have much less internal conflict about things. I'm more accepting of myself, my desires, and more capable of following his lead than I was in the beginning. I have developed ways of dealing with things that frustrate me.
I am less afraid of the various forms of BDSM play, and more confident in my ability to handle situations of many types, playing with multiple people, or serving others, which I really wasn't at first. There were many more things that made me very nervous in the beginning, which I guess would be expected. That's not to say I never get scared now, but I have had enough experience that EVERYTHING doesn't scare me.
Cattle prods still do, though.
Saturday, February 13, 2016
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