Tuesday, September 18, 2012

French Toast Mind Fuck



 Heh, just messing with ya.   Really I have #20 of the Questions about submission today.

Has your submission increased or decreased over time? Have you ever had to renegotiate your submission due to a change in your feelings or circumstance?



We never did the negotiation thing.  So, no, there has been no renegotiation of my submission, nor is there likely to be any.   To us it seemed very simple, if not easy.  I submitted, and that was it, he was in charge.  

As to the first question, yes there was definitely an increase in submission as we worked our way into a M/s relationship.   I never had a lot of external resistance, but I had to fight my way through the internal resistance.  

Many times when I did not get my way in something that was important to me I had to silently repeat a mantra to myself of "Just obey" or "I am patience" over and over just to keep myself from totally losing it.   I have noticed recently that I haven't had to use those mantras very often anymore, they are just naturally incorporated into me. 
No, I am not always patient.   But my impatience and resistance doesn't come in such overwhelming waves that it threatens to knock me ass over teakettle anymore. 


2 comments:

  1. LOL. It's a great title though!
    Even if there was no great descriptions of french toast related mindfucks...Maybe you could experiment for us!

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  2. I am so bad at thinking up what exactly a mind fuck would be, though. And Master doesn't eat french toast, so I rarely have it either. Maybe thinking I was going to eat french toast, but then ending up with hard boiled egg instead... ok, not very exciting.

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